I go a little overboard at New Year’s, reflecting and planning and all that. Because so many changes happened in my life (and the world) this year, I think my need to reflect went into overdrive.
This year I started extra early, back in November.
Here’s a note from my bullet journal:
On a micro scale, 2017 was…not great.
On a macro scale, it has been AMAZING. Trump, carnivory, new job, moving, etc.
2018: year of micro?
In my years of working, I’ve come to realize that the most useful vantage points are either on the ground, the front-lines staff who works directly with the data or the people or digging in the dirt–where you have an opportunity to make decisions on a personal and behavior level and impact the world in that way– or high up, the decision-bearing leadership who has responsibility and a clear view of the landscape–where you have the opportunity to craft a coherent strategy.
In other words, strategy and tactics.
But in a bureaucracy, there are a lot of other layers in between. Those tend to get muddy and lost and don’t add much value. The top and the bottom are where things get done. (Ideally. I realize politics is like fifty shades of grey.)
Looking at my micro/macro observations through this lens, it’s clear that 2017 positioned me in a different place strategically. I’m in a different town with a different job and a different way of eating with better health. That’s great.
What I didn’t do in 2017 was a lot of the projects that I had planned. Writing a novel. Working on art. Learning something new and useful. Making new friends. Improving my style. Focusing on fitness.
My macro changed, but my micro didn’t.
However, now that my macro is better, I feel like I can focus more on the micro.
Not the grand, sweeping decisions, but the small moments of my life, the things I do to propel myself through my day.
I’m trying to focus on the incredible gift it is to have the consciousness to be able to plan strategically, but the blessing to be only in one moment of time at once. Focus my consciousness on the task at hand.
(She writes as she pulls up a YouTube video in the background. SAD!) (I put it away.)
Habits, actions, and the doing of it. That’s what 2018 is going to be about–and has been so far.
I’ll check back at the end of March–my first self-imposed deadline.