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Month: May 2020

Warmups

I like the idea of warming up. Maybe because the idea of dropping straight out of sleep into a packed day is a bit bewildering. Maybe because I grew up doing ballet, where half the ballet class is warming up, practicing essential movements.

We can apply the idea of warmups to many domains. Getting your blood moving and stretching out muscles before taxing one’s body physically. Reading a psalm before composing a prayer of one’s own. Journalling “known” thoughts & feelings before writing to explore something new; or externally, rehearsing a speech to oneself before giving it to others. Vocal warmups. Math problems. Logic and geometry.

School stuff. Because the stuff we learn about in school—the “essential movements” of life—are only as good as what we apply them to later in life.

The danger, as always, is that we forget that the “essential movements” are to be put into motion—brought to life—in the dance. We practice so we can perform. Or more accurately, participate.

We do not practice for practicing’s sake. That way lies recursion and futility and frustration.

I have come to believe that this life is a warmup, in a way. Our time on earth is a chance to practice the “essential movements” of living, of choosing the Good, the Beautiful, and the True—so that we, too, can join the dance.

The parallels between metabolic dysfunction and university budgeting

We were all taught that losing weight is a simple matter of eating less. If “calories in equals calories out,” all you have to do is eat fewer calories when you want to lose weight.

That’s true, mostly. You DO need to eat fewer calories than you expend to lose weight.

BUT. 

The CICO model doesn’t account for things like satiety, hunger, insulin resistance, and general metabolic dysfunction. It assumes that your body is functioning properly, that all systems are go.

CICO also assumes that all calories are the same. That carbohydrates are used by your body in the same way as protein or fat.

Those are both big assumptions.

When you take actual reality into account—instead of assumptions—you’ll find that most people have some form of metabolic dysfunction. That’s why lots of people find that they can lose weight and keep it off on a low-carb diet.

Often, during the weight-loss journey, people discover what foods they can and cannot tolerate. And as their bodies heal, they become healthier.

Other people can explain this better than I can.

Meanwhile, the CICO people favor putting more or fewer calories into a system that is already broken—without changing the system—and expect a good result.

It works if you’re generally healthy, but if you’re not? Good luck.

That’s health.

I see almost exactly the same thing happening around budgeting—especially budgeting around university operations.

“We need more money!” University Presidents cry. “We need to put more calories money into our system!”

Similar to calories, not all money is the same. Federal funding, especially grants, can only be spent on pre-approved activities. Universities try to skim off the top (F&A, I’m looking at you) but usually that money goes back into getting more grants. Even the way that tuition money is allocated, it follows so many arcane-sounding rules that the President or financial officer is prevented from distributing money into the places that need it.

Similar to metabolic disfunction, often the system of budgeting—and calculating ROI—within the university is either nonexistent or broken.

For example:

As higher education budgets have been reduced over the past decades, colleges and universities have been forced to rely on institutional grants to pilot programs designed to reduce achievement gaps and increase overall student success. Difficulties often emerge, however, when the grant comes to an end and there are difficult financial decisions regarding the transitioning of processes, offices, practices, and personnel.

AHEE.org

So you have a broken system, and people trying to get support for stuffing more money into it, instead of sitting down and doing the (hard) work of figuring out how to best distribute the money into the most critical parts of the system.

More money isn’t going to help until you FIX where the money is going and how it’s being used. Otherwise, you’re just limping along with a system that can’t make the best use of what it has.

The university gets fat, and malnourished, with administrative bloat instead of people teaching and seeking the truth. With students who can pull in $ instead of students who are the best fit for the university’s mission and research objectives.

Universities have financial diabetes.

What if I come back

It’s interesting, how words stick with you. How a question lingers around your ears like a cloud.

“Where can I read your writing?” A friend asked.

Immediately: Batfort dot com!

I said: I’m not ready to share that yet.

I thought about my initial challenge, to write and publish every day for a year. I thought about how it’s been over a year since I stopped pushing myself, daily, to distill words out of myself and display them for all the world to see.

I think now about how much of this blog feels like a “coming out,” of sorts. The coming forth of ideas and wishes that previously were known only to myself and my God.

I know how much writing reveals about a person—I’ve read books and blogs and tweets—and I’m embarrassed to put forth words knowing that I’ll reveal my innermost guts and give you something to hate.

So much has changed in my life since I first started posting here. My circumstances are almost entirely different: city, type of dwelling, dayjob, friends. (And currently: global pandemic.)

But some things I rarely talk about in my real life, and those are the things that come out here: a well-crafted aesthetic bubble, admiration for a sub-set of political movers, a metaphysical view of the world that is off the beaten track (and still very much under revision), my lifelong obsession with the interplay between the structure of an idea (or thing) and its outward expression.

Putting words around my thoughts is sometimes the only way to escape them. Putting them on a blog—pushing them out into the public square—feels like the most shameful, scandalous thing one could do with the contents of one’s mind.

Yet here I am. And here you are.

Shall we?

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