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The Reader: Funding the future of research and sushi for cats

Meghan Caughill

New year…same ol’ me. Have you ever felt that making a big change to your lifestyle—like moving or getting a dramatic new hairstyle—will also change you on the inside? I’ve been guilty of that for many years. Surely THIS TIME I’ll get my new apartment decorated and keep it in impeccable shape. It never comes to pass. I keep repeating patterns of thought and behavior, so of course the past repeats itself! I hadn’t yet done the work to change.

I have high hopes for 2019, but so far I’ve been lying low. I’m avoiding the work—the early stages are always so painful. But like sore muscles after the gym, you (and I) have to work through the discomfort to get somewhere worth going. I have muscles now, after going through the gym. What will I have after going to art gym for 6 months? Let’s find out.


» How gorgeous are these cyanotype notebooks???

» Michigan State is a bellwether for things to come in academia. Universities are full of people who like to avoid responsibility and making difficult decisions. Structurally, the fiefdom model (only each discipline has the authority to oversee itself) provides lots of room for shady things to develop. Combined with the cult-like devotion that most universities foster, any misdeeds open a powder keg of bad emotions.

For colleges and universities, tragedies of this scale more commonly take the form of fatal accidents or mass shootings. In such cases, campus communities tend to pull together rather than split apart. The failure of a leader as a moral actor, however, elicits a different kind of grieving. This is an angry grief, a confusing sorrow that tempers enthusiasm for the institution with a kind of quiet shame. It is a phenomenon that finds its singular historic parallel at Pennsylvania State University, where top administrators were criminally charged with covering up the crimes of a serial sexual predator.

As at Penn State, where Graham B. Spanier served for 16 years as president before he was fired and later convicted of endangering the welfare of children, Michigan State struggles to come to grips with what the Simon era means now. Her prosecution brings that struggle to the fore in ways that her long-serving colleagues had not fully anticipated, opening a dam of emotion and ambivalence.

» Ignore all the art-school-ese and this is some pretty cool internet-based art.

» You reap what you sow: “My daughter asked me to stop writing about motherhood. Here’s why I can’t do that.” Check the comments; they’ll say everything that you’re thinking and more.

» Investigators are starting to root out the infiltrators of the alt-right (aka the ones designed to make the alt-right look and act more extreme than they really are)

» I’m not a fan of any type of feminism but this article makes some very good points: “This is everything wrong with mainstream feminism

» That isn’t to say that I don’t love women. Many women are doing cool and interesting things, like Riva-Melissa Tez. I like her ideas about funding research, and that she’s actually doing something about it.

We really need to improve incentive structures between groups. How can we give other people access to fundamental research? When you read academic papers, researchers are incentivized to keep private the exact details that would explain the breakthrough. I’m opposed to people being private about discovery, even though I understand it would be suicide to do the opposite. I love today’s emphasis on being open source, but we need more incentives for following through. Right now, you need to be altruistic or charitable to be open source. There is no cost benefit. We don’t live in a world where individuals get rewarded for contributing to society. Instead, the message is, contribute to your own thing and you’ll be rewarded for it. Then use that money to contribute to society. That process is too slow in my mind.

» “Gen Z Is Forgoing College To Attend Trade Schools

» If you’ve ever wondered why the world is a hall of mirrors, this article will help explain why. (Please note that I do not endorse all of the theology. The bit on mimetics is great, tho.)


 

Watercolor Practice

Roughly a year ago, I started doing bodyweight workouts in my living room. 20-min circuits took me 40 minutes to finish. I couldn’t do half the exercises because I was too weak. It was embarrassing. But it happened in the privacy of my living room and nobody saw me but me.

Later, I started a bodyweight-to-failure routine. Eventually I felt comfortable enough to exercise in public, so I joined a gym and started a weightlifting program. Now physique has changed enough that friends and family notice the difference. I’m slimmer, more muscular, and generally happier with how my body looks, feels, and performs.

When I started Batfort, there wasn’t an internet living room that I could practice in. Sure, I could have done a lot of practice offline…but that’s a journal, not a blog. The only way to practice blogging is to do it, otherwise known as “practicing in public” or “publishing the learning curve.” Or, being okay with making a fool out of yourself in public.

The thing about internet traffic is, though, that nobody cares at first. You don’t get any traffic—and why should you?—which is discouraging even though you know it’s going to happen. Now, the traffic for the first 5 days of January has already surpassed all the traffic for January 2018, a few people have left comments, and posts have been linked to by other bloggers. There are still many things to improve (especially, and always, the quality my writing) but this is now an honest-to-goodness blog.

Sounds like it’s time for a new challenge!

One of my goals for the year is to build up a portfolio of art—specifically, watercolor and/or pen-n-ink—that I could submit to an art gallery or coffee shop for review. Ultimately I’d like to be accepted for a show of some sort, but I recognize that is out of my control to some extent. At the very least, I’d like to get to the Tolkien-like ability to illustrate my own writing if I want.

While this is a skill that I could work on entirely in the privacy of my living room, I’ve learned that “practicing in public” is helpful in many ways. I like documenting the process, which allows me to see how far I’ve come. Taking the time to step back and reflect on the process might help me learn faster. And, I find that doing things in public creates more accountability in my own mind.

So here’s the plan: Roughly each week, I’ll post a round-up of watercolor projects that are interesting. I don’t want to spam every day, and neither do I want to post the boring stuff like color swatches (with the above exception) and studies.

I’ll write a little about what I learned, but I will refrain from criticizing each piece. We all know I’m just starting out.* Ain’t nobody critiqued me doing push-ups on my yoga mat, so I’ll give myself that space to get better at watercolor, too.

Without further ado, exhibit A:

I’m quite pleased that it looks pretty much like the forced-bulb Amaryllis that served as my still-life model tonight, and with how well the wax-covered bulb turned out.

Things I learned:

  • If it’s still even a little bit teeny wet, the watercolor will bleed
  • Don’t color over watercolor with markers if you want a “natural” look
  • Black makes dull shadows—try a different method next time

 

 


*Full disclosure: Just as I did, in fact, know how to do a push-up prior to working out regularly, I’ve taken a few art and drawing classes in the past and am not starting from total scratch with watercolors.

Three images…

…that are unrelated in content but visually similar.

 

Maybe it’s the color palette.

The view from the other side of Christmas

I was way liberal with my diet in December. Between the tropical vacation, the death of a family member, and the holidays, I rediscovered that I am an emotional eater.

Instead of holding to the straight and narrow path, I ate delicious goodies. Cheese, dark chocolate, gin & mineral water, a spoonful of guacamole, and coffee coffee coffee.

Nothing too horrible (God forbid I eat a blueberry!) but definitely a lot o things on the “no” list.

Everything was delicious. I regret nothing.

I will say, however, that on the other side of things I can feel the inflammation creeping back into my brain.

  • My bowels hurt, when they didn’t before.
  • My brain is foggy, when before it was fine.
  • My mood is down, my sleep less efficient.
  • Overall no bueno.

Time to return to the path.

2019 Theme: Seek

Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.  —Matthew 7:7-8, King James Version

 

Last year, I didn’t make any resolutions. What I did was continue some ongoing personal challenges, and set myself some bigger goals. Instead of concentrating a bunch of effort at the beginning of the year (I started rather lazily, actually) I ended up concentrating effort in the middle of the year (June/July), which built up into a very satisfying momentum. I ended up hitting all of my goals, and got healthier to boot.

This year, I decided to take that idea and expand on it a little bit. There are some activities that I want to try and some larger projects that I want to tackle, but I much like the low-and-slow approach to building a life.

Because there are some mindset issues I want to tackle, I’m trying out the idea of a theme for the year. It took a while to whittle down a bunch of ideas to one simple word, but it came to me this afternoon.

My theme for 2019 is SEEK.

The unspoken subtext is to seek what is, not what should be or what might be or what I wish to see. Seek what currently exists to find.

This means not jumping to conclusions. This means not assuming that I know things when I don’t. This means being curious. This means refraining from judgment, instead taking the time to explore and learn more. This means putting aside my constant need to intellectualize things and to just experience things. Intensely, inquisitively, but being present in the moment.

Here are some of the ways that I’ve already interpreted this word. In 2019, I intend to seek:

  • new opportunities (to add value, to make money, to meet people)
  • a new skill
  • contentment (with what currently exists, not focusing on what doesn’t exist yet)
  • ways to connect (with people, or to put two disparate ideas together)
  • the best in people
  • the Kingdom of God (to see the Spirit and the Truth in things)
  • to deepen and to grow (in my faith, in relationships, in my community)
  • the limits of my time and the boundaries I place on myself
  • solutions, rather than more reasons why

I don’t have many “what to dos” yet, but I like this list of “how to do it.” Reframing my conundrums (being too negative on myself and needing to pay more attention to people and relationships) in this way has made me think of new ways of approaching old problems in my life.

Not long after the word SEEK popped into my head this year, I went to get coffee. With “seek to connect with people” fresh on my mind, I decided to smile at a guy in line. He turned out to be a match from a dating site who I had “liked” a few days ago. We had a nice conversation (we’ll see where it goes)…but the triple-word score synchronicity is enough to tell me that I’m on the right track.

Like I said before, I’m not going to push it this year. Instead, I’m going to keep this idea at the forefront of my mind. It’s already gotten me thinking differently, and acting differently.

Moving back to more concrete goals, I’ve set myself three main challenges: do something social at least once a week, complete a larger project or trip each month, and start using the Flylady method to learn how to be a better housekeeper.

Some goals include: get good enough at art to submit my work for consideration to a coffee shop or gallery, go flyfishing, follow through on the backpacking trip that my dad and I have been talking about for years, set up an LLC for this blog, and learn how to bind a book.

The rest I’ll make up as we go along—what good would the year be if I planned everything now?

There’d be nothing to seek later!

The Reader: K-pop Style, Postmodernism, and Internet Inversion

Happy new year, y’all! I didn’t think 2018 was all that bad, but I’m looking forward to doing productive things and thinking grateful thoughts in 2019. This time of year, more than ever, has me thinking about future plans and how to coax the tiniest wisps of potential into crackling flames. Creativity is not a zero-sum game—so let’s create together, shall we?


» 15 k-dramas always worth rewatching—I can vouch for a few on this list.

» The internet is a house of mirrors.

» It’s always funny to me that Korean pop songs are often written by Americans and Europeans—the final product sounds so different than Western pop music. This article has little insights into why.

With Korea, we like to do things that push the boundaries, not super generic, because they’re very musical. Things like that translate a lot better than they do in America.

» He’s not the only fashionable one of the group, but certainly the most flashy. I enjoyed this interview with Taeyong of NCT 127’s stylists.

» Introducing the concept of the “Sexy Baby.”

» Poking holes in the narrative of “Interdisciplinary work will save us:”

I think the answer is that a distinction basic to my argument — the difference between good interdisciplinary work and bad — isn’t as widely recognized in literary studies as it should be. It is as if some members of the profession believe that, once one steps outside of one’s discipline, one also abandons the standards by which one’s work might be judged.

» Disney ruins just about everything, including copyright law. The public domain is finally getting bigger, after a 20 year Mickey-induced hiatus.

» Long read alert: Postmodern Religion and the Faith of Social Justice.

» Cait Johnstone has 21 thoughts on Julian Assange:

18. Anyone who participates in the ongoing smear campaign against Assange and Wikileaks is basically just saying “Extremely powerful people should be able to lie to us without any difficulty or opposition at all.”

» It’s only a matter of time before a drone takes down a passenger plane. (And then then drone fun is over.)

» Truth is Beauty posted a list of keywords to help figure out your style ID. I like this because it helps connect adjectives with the category—bringing the abstract down to a more practical level when you’re evaluating clothes and building outfits.

I’ll double-check this determination by asking myself, “Is this outfit refined (Classic)? Is this outfit comfortable (Natural)? Is this outfit sexy (Romantic)?”

Yes, yes, yes.

I may take an extra moment to rule out the other four essences by asking myself, “Is this outfit otherworldly (Ethereal)? Is it innocent (Ingenue)? Is it avant-garde (Dramatic)? Is it playful (Gamine)?”

 

Life as a Carnivore (World Carnivore Month 2019)

January is World Carnivore Month. That’s cool.

To me, it is January.

I’ll go back to my life after a season of indulging in treats like cheese and dark chocolate and gin. Time to eat clean and healthy for a spell. (And spend some time trying out my new Cuisinart Griddler, which is replacing my beat-up ol’ Foreman grill.)

Many positive things entered my life when I decided to try eating only meat and other animal products.

Yes, being a carnivore has helped me stop craving sweets and binge-eating carbs. Yes, being a carnivore has given my body the environment it needs to heal from over two decades of autoimmune disease. Yes, being a carnivore has given me more energy than I’ve ever known, which has led to more travelling and more time in the gym (hello, muscles!).

It could be easy to paint the carnivore diet as a magic cure—the holy grail that you’ve been searching for that will cure all your aches and pains, make you feel younger and healthier, and cause the sun to shine on you even in the rain.

Some people on the carnivore forums spin those tales. They claim that their lifelong ailments were cured in a few days, or that they lost a bunch of weight without trying, or that their depression lifted or whatever. Maybe this was their experience.

In my experience, healing takes time even when you’re eating a strict diet. Change is difficult. Results take time, and optimizing requires lots of trial and error. Even under a new paradigm, you have to test and change your assumptions. Other people’s promises don’t always apply to you.

The thing about life as a carnivore, is that it’s just that: life.

I wake up, I go to sleep. This way of eating does not exempt me from needing rest. In fact, it has underscored how much I need a full night’s sleep. Without the “buffer” of carbs and the luxury of copious amounts of coffee, lack of sleep shows up quicker.

I pack my lunches and cook dinners after work. Carnivory does not supply me with hot meals on command (I wish!), nor does it mean that I never think about food. Sure, eating this way is a lot simpler, but I still have to figure out when prep meals for the week or what I’m going to eat if I’m going out somewhere. Now that I’m somewhat established, I’m finding that it’s time to become more adventuresome with eating—time to try out the organ meats and “off” cuts that I have been avoiding.

I struggle with stress. One thing eating like a carnivore taught me is that one does not simply solve all problems through a dietary intervention. Sure, diet can solve a lot of underlying problems, but it can’t solve everything. Moving forward, I need to learn to manage stress. If I don’t, no amount of clean eating can help me.

I still need to exercise. Abs or no abs, diet doesn’t provide the benefits of exercise. I still have to do the work, whether its with calisthenics on my living room floor or with free weights at the gym.

And I still monitor my portions. Despite what some people say, we don’t all need to eat 4lbs of ribeye every day. I didn’t start losing weight until I made peace with eating much less (and waaaay less fat than I thought). These days, I eat roughly 1 – 1.5 pounds of lean meat per day, plus a few extras (like beef sticks, coffee, and a little cheese).

For years, I searched for a “magic bullet” that would make all my health problems disappear. For a while, I hoped the carnivore diet would be that solution.

But the real solution—the real thing that being a carnivore has taught me—is that there is no magic pill. There’s no quick trick to getting what I want. No holy grail.

The real magic comes from doing the work—from learning what my body wants, and needs—from making the mistakes and recovering from them. The answers are in me—they always have been—I just need to stay on the straight and narrow path instead of straying looking for shiny magic answers.

My body has everything it needs to heal. I just need to stay out of the way.

 


If you’re trying out the carnivore diet this January, welcome! This is a great way of eating.

It’s true: I made a Zine

After so much wondering about the sincerity of fashion magazines, and magazines in general, I decided that it’s time to step up myself.

So I made a zine!

 

>>> You can download it here: Batfort Zine – Photo Manipulation <<<

Merry Christmas

Wishing you and yours

A restful, festive time

To celebrate the birth of our savior,

Jesus Christ.

I never understood Goya until

Three years ago, I saw death close-up for the first time. My grandmother, after a long and full life, died at home surrounded by family. I can still remember how viscerally the sound of death lingered around her breaths that day.

After that, for the first time, Francisco Goya’s painting Saturn Devouring His Son was no longer creepy or unsettling to me.

I thought of it that night, alone, in bed, even though I hadn’t seen or thought about the painting in years.

Somehow, it made sense.

 

I still don’t like looking at this painting—it’s not pleasurable to look at—but it’s no longer alien. I feel like I can speak somewhat of the language of the artist, the inchoate expression that he was putting into form. (Pardon the art-school language.)

I’d prefer not to post this image on my site. I’d prefer not to look at the body of my grandfather, who died this week. There are a lot of things that I’d prefer not to do, but that life dictates otherwise.

That is why I believe in art.

It’s crazy to me how much art can help make sense of the world, and how some art doesn’t make any sense until you need it.

There is art that is bullshit, but then there is art that communicates something so deeply that it bypasses words and goes straight for the heart.

This is the art we need.

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