» Sometimes you realize how inadequate you are to face the sheer colossus of reality. There’s so much I want to understand right now, to wrap my head around, but it’s nearly impossible to get a handle on it. A few years ago, I wouldn’t have been able to see what’s in front of me; now I see it and know that I’m much to finite to figure any of it out. Yet I feel compelled to try my best.

» And simultaneously I try to stretch myself in new ways, to develop physical muscles and learn new things and decide on the future and revisit old friendships and forge new ones. The newness, the regrowth, can be overwhelming.

» It’s too warm in my house which makes it difficult to concentrate.

» I find Korean more aesthetically pleasing than Japanese but Japanese-style music videos are 1000x crazier than anything aimed at the Korean market.

» It’s really easy to just look around for someone who will tell you what to do. Resist that impulse. Thinking for yourself is difficult, and it involves risk.

» It’s really difficult to be encouraging to others when you’re feeling rather nihilistic yourself.

» What if I want to be an artisan, not a merchant?