I’ve been tidying and decorating my house. This morning, I hung some crystal garlands in my windows and delighted in the tiny rainbows that danced over my walls. As I was hanging a Japanese paper lantern in the corner of my room where I write every morning, I flashed in some sort of strange loop back to a memory of myself in 2013. I was living in a tiny studio apartment in NW Portland, and I had an idea about a blog. As I worked to create the look and feel of this blog—about living with Crohn’s disease—I stopped for an Instagram break and was struck by a picture of women, in a garden covered with green growing things, surrounded by prisms. The atmosphere was almost magical—something that I desperately wanted in my life at the time.

It hit me, today, in 2019, that I am now living the life that 2013-me wanted so much. I’m surrounded by green growing things and tiny dancing rainbows, sustained by joy and completely remade into a healthy human being, body and mind.

I wish I could reach back through time and pull 2013-me through to today, but without that six years in between—six incredibly tough years in which I learned some of the hardest lessons of my life—I wouldn’t be here now.

Back in 2013, I started a blog but couldn’t sustain it. I didn’t have the energy, or the deep confidence that only comes from knowing that I’ve been to hell and back. Now, I can do anything.

I’ve set some big challenges for April. Watch this space.

 


 

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